Deja Vu

Here I am, with 7 articles due in less than two hours, and I am writing a post for my own blog. I guess I just needed some sort of a warm up. Sounds like something I have already written before, yes. When I was at the height of freelance writing a few months back, I suddenly came to a point where I was just staring at the screen and I could not type any more words to finish my projects.

I always have a fear that this might happen again, so instead of focusing on honing my skills as a freelance writer, I tend to deviate and look for other, less risky ways to earn me income - fixed income that is.

For 6 months I did enjoy another stint at employment. I met new friends, got to stick around old ones and catch up, but my life was far from perfect. My kid went back to being a delinquent student, incurring lates and absences here and there (and mind you she's only in her first grade). My husband and I always had petty fights, almost about everything. The only thing normal about my life was that - fixed income. That's what I signed up for anyway, right?

Now that I'm back to being an unemployed stay at home mom, my life still isn't perfect. I totally suck as a homemaker. I know how to cook a few dishes, but I still have a lot to learn. I still have a lot of time management issues, and I am still struggling with having to balance working from home and doing household chores.

But this is not a deja vu of what happened months ago. Now that I know what my priorities are, I will never succumb to fear anymore. Yes, writer's block can happen any time (I can now associate it with stroke). But I refuse to succumb to it.

I miss my friends. I miss having my pay conveniently credited in my payroll account twice a month. I miss my friends. But I guess that's a sacrifice I have to make in order to spend quality time with my family and in order to become what I have dreamed of since I was little - a close to perfect wife and mother that can handle everything around the house while earning a few bucks here and there.

Now that I have vented out, enough of this emo stuff since I still have 7 articles to complete within less than two hours! :)

Major Blog Overhaul = Major Liefestyle Overhaul

Finally, I had some free time in my hands to update the layout of my blog. It's nothing much but for me the new view is decent enough to accommodate everything I want to fit into this small virtual space of mine.

This should also pave the way for the launch of my additional blog sites. Why am I doing this now? Let's just say that at this point my future is very unclear. Last week, we were handed a notice that our team's employment contract will end on December 5 instead of December 31 as originally scheduled. After December 5, I'll be a bum again (or a full time network marketer if I choose to be one again).

I really don't know what's waiting for me a few weeks from now. All I know is that if I am ever going to pull off this blogging thingie, now is the best place for me to start.

My next assignment: learn more about what feeds and feedburners are for... I really don't have any clue whatsoever. There's really a lot of stuff going on with blogging, and it's been going on for years. I hope I'll have enough time for the next few days to stay away from playing The Sims and focus on how I can turn this hobby into a money-making machine! :)

Lessons I Learned from Watching Barbie Movies

I thought about this topic 4 months ago (draft saved 05/18/2011 to be exact). Now that I have some free time on my hands, I'm in the mood to finish this post. After reading my previous entry which is so depressing, I just thought this one should tip off the balance a bit.

Since my daughter turned 3 (she's turning 6 this month), I always enjoyed watching Barbie movies with her (here's Wiki's complete listing of Barbie movies) . From The Nutcracker to the most recent one we watched, Barbie: A Fairy Secret, I always enjoyed how Barbie transforms into a brave and intelligent girl that we all would like to be. I was even able to apply some of the lessons I learned from these movies in real life, especially when I had to face tough situations.

Here are some of my favorite Barbie movies:

Barbie and The Diamond Castle: Up to now I still catch my self humming or singing the songs in this movie - Two Voices One Song, Connected, We're Gonna Find It, and Believe. All of those songs have inspired me and somehow helped me have a more positive outlook in life.

Barbie and The Three Musketeers: I love this movie because of the stylish fight scenes, especially the part when they sneaked into the castle on order to protect the prince when all the male musketeers are either unconscious or tied up. I also loved one of Barbie's lines in the movie: True courage is pursuing your dream, even when everyone else says it's impossible."

Every time my daughter and I watch Barbie movies, I always hope that these movies would influence my daughter the way they influenced me. I hope that it her early years, she will be able to learn valuable lessons about hope, courage, honesty, kindness and love and that she will be able to use these lessons as she faces tougher things in life.